Hmmm.....
Seems like peace again in this crazy relationship of mine.....
That boy.....
Just confused....
At my expense........
Haiz....
It better not happen again cuz my heart ain't that strong....
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Was going to blog about the downs of love, but i guess there's no need for me to now...
MUAHAAHAHAHAHAHAHHAaaa......
Yippeee!!!!!
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My head is throbbing......
My heart is pumping......
My eyes are tearing......
My heart is aching......
I guess i'm wrong after all...
That you don't wanna perservere after all though you said you tried...
But did you really try...?
It's ironic what i posted yesterday just crumbles with wat you have to say...
You said you do love me, then why this action?
So in that case i'll assume that you do not love me or love me less than before....
But why is that so?
You said you do not know what is the reason to your action but you don't want me to suffer anymore than i should now....
Isn't that what my ex all said to me despite your denials that you are not like them?
You must know that i will definately be hurt...
Short term pain right now than long term pain in future you said...
Don't you know this will hurt me for a very long period?
It won't be short term like what i told you 1 week or something about the previous guy...
Think about it...
It took me 1&half yr to get involved with u after my previous
I was pretty much withdrawn over a guy i didn't love....
He was just someone i like...
And still it hurt me....
But you...
You should know what you mean to me...
Remember what you said about not breaking up with me unless i'm the one who initiate or i go astray?
Why is it you didn't think about that when you decide to take action now?
Why did you say it in the first place if our relationship is not firm enough?
Why did you make so many empty promises to me??
Where have all our happy memories drifted to?
Why did you decide to forgo those?
Maybe it's just me...
Maybe i haven't shown enough care & love for you...
Maybe i am right... That i'm just someone whom you enjoy the company...
& Maybe you won't miss me after this cuz there isn't any memories for you to linger on...
I will though...
I'll miss the times you buy me honey lemon green tea...
I'll miss the times you force me to buy something i refused to at mobil...
I'll miss the times you massage me when i'm exhausted even though you are too yourself...
I'll miss the times we took so many happy photos at Esplanade/chalet/Bird Park/Sentosa...
I'll miss the times you pat me to sleep with a smile on your face...
I'll miss the times we wrestled on bed and end up laughing at each other...
I'll miss the times we fought alongside each other in LOTR...
I'll miss the times we go swimming together and splashed water more than exercise...
I'll miss the times you stare at me in the eyes lovingly with a lopsided grin...
I'll miss the times we dine in places where we should have save our money for just hawker...
I'll miss the times you hold my hand and give it a gentle peck...
I'll miss the times i took the countless of cab rides to your place just to be with you...
I'll miss the times you flick my fringe away from my forehead to give me a kiss on it...
I'll miss the huggies we shared so many a times...
I'll miss so many many other times.....
You might not even miss these times...
Cuz if you did, i'm sure more efforts will be put into the relationship
But you can't be bothered...
You tried and you can't...
So tat's bad you said...
You've hurt me so much....
Cuz I miss everything..............
You've made me a better person...
Cuz i never can share my true feelings to anyone at all...
Yet i can to you...
And now...
You just make me cry incessantly...
I can't stop yet i must force myself to...
Cuz i have to look strong in front of others & i cant cry in public...
But you....
You should know how reliant i am towards you...
I'm not really that strong a person.....
Life goes on...
Yes...
An awfully painful one though....
But memories will never be erased.....
I still can't believe you can do such a thing to me.....
After all that we've been through
It's just too much for me to take...............
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Heart-shaped cloud 
I honestly don't know....
But somehow, i never believe in long distance relationships....
Though at one pt i might have gotten in that sorta situation,
But it was quickly "rectified" and my relationship was back to the normal where we can still see each other in the same country....
For long distance relationship, one thing you gotta have is trust and belief in your other half
And the thing about it is that it has to, Has to be both ways....
If one gets too lonely in his/her country...
Chances are he/she will stray....
Which is why long distance relationships almost nvr work out for most couples...
And in your case cool chick if you're referring to cheryl tan....
But not to worry bout your own boy though...
Hee....
Cuz even if he is heading overseas
he will be too tied down over his studies to look at sexy japanese/singaporean/china girls over there....
Unless of course he prefers to stray than to study la....
Ho ho ho!
I'm so evil....
Anyways.........
Watever the case, it will all boil down to you and your partner's determination and patience...
So perservere.....
I know i am...
I dunno whether he is or not
But i prefer to think that he is and probably probe him about it once in a while
And drop it till i get insecured again...
Ultimately i rather not think too far....
What's happy for you is what's happening for you right now...
I do hope nobody gives in easily without a fight though...
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Now, you tell me.
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(Continuing from the previous episode…)
After the shameless flirting with the alien with a cold next door, Donia managed to get herself down with the same cold. Instead of resting well and isolating her contagious flu, she couldn’t resist woohoo-ing with Wilson, resulting in the spreading of the cold.
With the both of them sick and unwilling to clean up the trailer, everything became worse. The flowers were dried up, the kitchen was littered with snack packagings, the bathrooms flooded and both the shower & sink in urgent need of repair, cockroaches scampering about the floors, and the both were getting dirtier by the days. Everyone who came to the little dirty trailer was constantly waving their hands at the manipulator, trying to tell her to help make the owners clean up…* dumdee dumdum… lalalalala…… I can’t see/hear u sims…*
Finally, with the final dinner of food-gone-bad, Donia got further poisoned from the current poisoned status, and the Grim Reaper came along. Wilson was checking out some babe from the aliens’ family, thus missed out on the only chance to play the scissors-paper-stone game with the grim and saving Donia from death. OWw…. TOO BAD….
*smiles * (The name, Donia was derived from a hated person’s name too.)
Anyways, Wilson, suddenly being single, very AVAILABLE, but oso very UNWANTED, thought that now’s the time he can get into another gal’s pants. So he tried every means of charming the gals in town (yes. He tried to charm all of them.), finally realised his true "love" (yeah rite. The gal hadn’t a choice. She’s the maid, he’s her employer!).
Wil the boy tried to get her into his dirty and unmade bed, the maid being utterly disgusted but unable to be rude to her employer, gave an excuse of her being hungry.
And Wilson being the eager boy in "love", boasted of his culinary skills and proceeded to cook for her outdoors, with the grills and hotdogs.
So unfortunate is the fact that I have conveniently forgotten to make Wilson learn cooking (u think they’ll study on their own?!) and a steady growing fire occurred right in front of the trailer. Wilson being the MCP and dying to show the Maid his prowess and manliness (which he obviously lack a lot), attempted to extinguish the fire with his own little fire extinguisher as he has forgotten to equip the fire alarm and that it was always better to call the fire dept.
Such stupidity then landed him in a hot situation, as he found himself engulfed in flames.
So very coincidentally, the aliens and other unrelated sims started to walk past that pathetic patch of land and everyone had the displeasure of seeing Whiny Wilson struggle and die in the fire.
As he hav not succeeded in claiming the maid as his wife, the grim reaper finding no one else to play the game with, finally took the disgusting git’s soul into hell…
Yep. The soap opera ends here, with the remainder of Donia’s ash urn and Wilson’s tombstone, perhaps I’ll see their ghosts when I ever move anyone (I hate) into that house lot………
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hoho... i jus luv being in control.............
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I know I can be real crazy sometimes, esp when I’m addicted to something.
Not the usual kind. Caffeine, drugs, NO.
Yeah, perhaps u have been b4 so drawn to playing some game, manipulative and controlling, making human lives wondrous or cursed, creating menaces or angels, happy or sad.
U can be making a spectacular life story of a beautiful being, born in a wonderful family with a silver, no, GOLD spoon firmly tucked in the mouth, rich and powerful, born to seduce life, and rule over the rest.
OR u can make a person, so forlorn that no one would think possible, poor and pathetic to the state where there’s not enuf to even survive for.
Lonely or Popular, Wealthy or Penniless, Intelligent or Dumb, Romanced or Unloved, You can make a being.
Yes the power of playing god.
No disrespect to almighty there.
But there really is a game such as that.
Why, don’t tell me you have nvr heard of the SIMS?? That’s just so not possible!!
Hah.
Dunno wat’s with tt, but since I’m so on the topic of the Sims 2 game, I wan to blog about how I made or break lives… MUAHAHAHAHAHAHAhahahahahahaaaaaa……
An addictive-to-the-core game I mus say, EA Games have done a fantastic job of recreating the godly game of controlling lives. This time, even for those who wanna break lives the easy way, without having to do much, one can jus create a situation for the Sim to topple to the worst on his/her own. So the moral of the story is, Revenge can be sweet (in non-reality).
Like for me, I hated my ex-bf. Let’s call him Wilson. I’m not really so hostile to my ex-es. Except for the one who dumped me. Oops.
K anyways, I made a sim who looked similar to him. Ok, with a little adjustments here and there. A little crooked nose, clipped lips, ugly, straggly hair. Fat and lazy, sloppy, and so begging for romance in his life (the real wilson had been more into every other thing than in romancing me).
There, I was nice enuf to give him a shabbily broken-down trailer, equipped with cheap but usable appliances, and a plump, sexed-up (notice that I did not use the word sexy), blondie, who had big & flat nose, eyes the size of a mere slit, and dirty-blond unkempt fly-aways threatening to strangle her, if she still refuses to put a comb to it.
HAH.
So Wilson and What’s-her-name started living in that Strangetown where the strangest things happen, of which aliens occupied some of the residences…
What’s-her-name (let’s juz give her a make-shift name, Donia) was having a house-warming party and the nice aliens went to their place to welcome them. But goodness gracious, I haven’t done a single manipulation since I gave them all the need requirements.
And guess wat, the game just went on with me watching on.
Wilson was trying his best in romancing Donia, but D-lady was busy flirting with the aliens to notice his affections. Wil the boy tried to make out with her, but was slapped. Oh dear, his pride was hurt to the max as the aliens stayed on in the house to watch the pathetic couple and to get fresh with Donia. Well, she was offering herself to them u know. Poor Wilson. He saw wat kind of gal his lady was, and scolded her in front of the alien men whom she was trying attract.
Oh my. The Sims 2 really have a lot of surprises when u least expect.
For now, I’m off for another soap opera btw Wilson & Donia….
Ciao.
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Today is Mid Autumn Festival!!
& i'm having dinner at my boyfriend's place, hope i don't burn down the house....
Cuz i'm gonna play with the paper lanterns that is being hung on display at his place, compliments of auntie of course....
Heh heh heh....
I love candles and fire..................................
Sounds very sadomasochism eh??
Whatever works yeah?
Kekekekekeek.....
I'll give him a time of his life then.....
Feel like shitting now...
And at work, i've got so many lousy customers!!!!
Having a headache because of them now....
*growl*
Never mind....
There's always mooncakes to whet my appetite tonight...
K k...
Damn it i know already!
Back to work!!!!!
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